I found the actual desire to write this morning.  Sort of stumbled across it, like a cat toy lost under the couch for a long time, coated in dust.  Picked it up, turned it over in my hands, batted it around a little.  And found that I had lost a couple hours.  With actual words.  On the page.  Then I hit a little bit of a wall.  And here I am.  Stumbling.  Struggling.  Going down.  Maybe I’ll do the dishes now.  Maybe go back to bed.  Dunno.  Sure felt good for a while, making actual, real progress on one of the novels.  Almost felt…like….  Stuff.  Or something.

Yeah.  Used up all my words for today.  ‘bye now.

a checklist for writers

Writers, eh? Whatcha gonna do with ’em?  Bung ’em in a hole, and fill it with dirt.  Stuff their mouths with dirty socks to be safe.  ‘Cause writers, well, they ain’t always talkers, but sometimes they are, and you can’t take any chances. 

Becoming

He appeared in the mirror over my shoulder as I brushed my teeth.  An eyeless face, glistening fishbelly white; a flat, tiny nose and thin, bloodless lips; long, thin, greasy black hair.  I felt that my reflected gaze was met, somehow.  Certainly, my attention was fixed, immobile.  I could no more move or complete my dental hygiene routine than I could fly.